You wonder

Commit everything you do to the Lord. Trust him, and he will help you. He will make your innocence radiate like the dawn, and the justice of your cause will shine like the noonday sun. (Psalm 37:5–6 NLT)

 As you face this time of testing, you wonder, “Why, Lord? Why do I have to go through so many heavy battles? Am I not pleasing You? I love You. Why do I have to go through these things?”
 Many Christians through the ages have asked such questions. In each case it was My Spirit seizing upon them, because unless they became weak, My strength could not be perfected in them. Unless they became broken, I could not teach them compassion; I could not give them the empathy, the outgoing concern they needed. I could not give them the many beautiful gifts of My Spirit that this brokenness and these battles bring.
 Through these afflictions I am teaching you to fight—not in your own strength, but with My strength in prayer, looking to Me for everything in your life. For I love you and I have called you to be one of My disciples. You have asked to be used in My kingdom, and I am answering your prayer. Trust and look to Me. —Jesus [1]

 Missing things hurts my heart sometimes, but always serves as a gentle reminder that giving up everything is really worth it. —Katie Davis

[1] Anchor Waiting Patiently